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"York here. I'm probably busy getting my ass handed to me by adorable woodland creatures, but I'll get back to you as soon as I can. Over and out."

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From:

grapeeater

i

i guess i'll ahve to try.

From:

ratherbelocky

That's all anybody could ask.

For what it's worth, I haven't had these exact problems myself. But if I'd communicated better with the people who were important to me, and if they'd done the same instead of locking into their own heads, things could have gone a lot better.

From:

grapeeater

my whole life it's been

'it doesn't matter what you feel as long as things get done' 'feelings are useless, the only thing that matters are results'

so i don't really know how to even start talking about it. it's hard to explain to people not from my world. i hid so much from her, from the others, because i wanted to look like i was a normal person, not 'prince kureshima'.

so it's hard to stop hiding. to say what i feel. i feel like i don't have the words.

From:

ratherbelocky

If people were seriously calling you 'Prince Kureshima,' no wonder you're so screwed up now.

[AGENT NEW YORK: THE SOUL OF TACT.]

Hey. It'll be okay, all right, Micchy? No one's born knowing how to do this stuff, we're all learning it as we go. And the people who know you, they also know this about you. You're managing well enough with me, aren't you?

From:

grapeeater

not to my face. but i know it was a nickname that was floating around.

... yeah i guess. it's still hard.

From:

ratherbelocky

It is, dude. But I think you're up to it.

From:

grapeeater

i appreciate the vote of confidence at least

From:

ratherbelocky

Good, 'cause I got more where that came from.

Look. As far as I'm concerned, man, it's clear you're trying to do better. I'm not gonna tell you it's enough just to try; I also got taught most my life that results matter. But, hey. It's trying that gets results, you know? And Mai seems like a sweet, understanding kid.

From:

grapeeater

yeah me too

and she is. too nice for her own good a lot of the time. but she's

strong

i guess? in her own way. and i know that. she never really freaked out all that much. she didn't fight but she still kept standing.

it's just hard to not want to... protect someone like that. i can't sort out my feeling sabout her, even now. but i'm not good for her. not like that.

but i'm doing what i can to try to not... go off the deep end again.

From:

ratherbelocky

Hey, I'm not saying don't protect her. That's what caring about people's all about, sometimes, especially for fighters. I'm just saying...find ways to watch over her that let you believe in her, too. That let you believe in whatever it is she sees in you.

Easier said than done, I know.