For what it's worth, I haven't had these exact problems myself. But if I'd communicated better with the people who were important to me, and if they'd done the same instead of locking into their own heads, things could have gone a lot better.
'it doesn't matter what you feel as long as things get done' 'feelings are useless, the only thing that matters are results'
so i don't really know how to even start talking about it. it's hard to explain to people not from my world. i hid so much from her, from the others, because i wanted to look like i was a normal person, not 'prince kureshima'.
so it's hard to stop hiding. to say what i feel. i feel like i don't have the words.
If people were seriously calling you 'Prince Kureshima,' no wonder you're so screwed up now.
[AGENT NEW YORK: THE SOUL OF TACT.]
Hey. It'll be okay, all right, Micchy? No one's born knowing how to do this stuff, we're all learning it as we go. And the people who know you, they also know this about you. You're managing well enough with me, aren't you?
Look. As far as I'm concerned, man, it's clear you're trying to do better. I'm not gonna tell you it's enough just to try; I also got taught most my life that results matter. But, hey. It's trying that gets results, you know? And Mai seems like a sweet, understanding kid.
Hey, I'm not saying don't protect her. That's what caring about people's all about, sometimes, especially for fighters. I'm just saying...find ways to watch over her that let you believe in her, too. That let you believe in whatever it is she sees in you.
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For what it's worth, I haven't had these exact problems myself. But if I'd communicated better with the people who were important to me, and if they'd done the same instead of locking into their own heads, things could have gone a lot better.
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'it doesn't matter what you feel as long as things get done' 'feelings are useless, the only thing that matters are results'
so i don't really know how to even start talking about it. it's hard to explain to people not from my world. i hid so much from her, from the others, because i wanted to look like i was a normal person, not 'prince kureshima'.
so it's hard to stop hiding. to say what i feel. i feel like i don't have the words.
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[AGENT NEW YORK: THE SOUL OF TACT.]
Hey. It'll be okay, all right, Micchy? No one's born knowing how to do this stuff, we're all learning it as we go. And the people who know you, they also know this about you. You're managing well enough with me, aren't you?
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... yeah i guess. it's still hard.
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Look. As far as I'm concerned, man, it's clear you're trying to do better. I'm not gonna tell you it's enough just to try; I also got taught most my life that results matter. But, hey. It's trying that gets results, you know? And Mai seems like a sweet, understanding kid.
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and she is. too nice for her own good a lot of the time. but she's
strong
i guess? in her own way. and i know that. she never really freaked out all that much. she didn't fight but she still kept standing.
it's just hard to not want to... protect someone like that. i can't sort out my feeling sabout her, even now. but i'm not good for her. not like that.
but i'm doing what i can to try to not... go off the deep end again.
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Easier said than done, I know.
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i guess... it'll just take time.
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