I didn't have anywhere else to go. I didn't talk about it. I don't think anyone really knew what was going on.
I was already the nerd kid, I didn't want to get beat up for being the kid with no one who wanted him, too.
I sort of have to wonder if Elfangor ever saw what happened to me after he died, before he became nothing. If the Ellimist ever gave him a chance to see more of me. Or of the future.
I got through it. I got through everything. I lived. I did my duty. Even if I had to get through living with them for... what, eight years? Something like that. If it worked out in the end, does it matter?
Even if it was neglect... I ended up okay. Okay enough to do what I was supposed to do, because I'm sure me being there that night wasn't an accident. So I could get into the fight. So I could be in the right place at the right time.
I endured. I'm okay.
[Even if he's not sure that he's convinced of that.]
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Date: 2016-06-10 08:59 pm (UTC)I was already the nerd kid, I didn't want to get beat up for being the kid with no one who wanted him, too.
I sort of have to wonder if Elfangor ever saw what happened to me after he died, before he became nothing. If the Ellimist ever gave him a chance to see more of me. Or of the future.
I got through it. I got through everything. I lived. I did my duty. Even if I had to get through living with them for... what, eight years? Something like that. If it worked out in the end, does it matter?
Even if it was neglect... I ended up okay. Okay enough to do what I was supposed to do, because I'm sure me being there that night wasn't an accident. So I could get into the fight. So I could be in the right place at the right time.
I endured. I'm okay.
[Even if he's not sure that he's convinced of that.]