i'm trying to change but i can still feel the same kinds of patterns running through my head. i never claimed to be a good person. even if i didn't kill anyone i was willing to murder.i was willing to sacrifice ea lot of people just to keep her safe. three and a half billion people - better than the original plan, still too many.
i don't want to lose her. i don't want to hurt her. i'm
i'm afraid. what if i hurt her again? when the world starts crashing down how will i be sure that what i choose will be different this time? id on't know if i can be strong enough to change especially since i don't know how.
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Date: 2016-05-11 01:13 pm (UTC)i'm trying to change but i can still feel the same kinds of patterns running through my head. i never claimed to be a good person. even if i didn't kill anyone i was willing to murder.i was willing to sacrifice ea lot of people just to keep her safe. three and a half billion people - better than the original plan, still too many.
i don't want to lose her. i don't want to hurt her. i'm
i'm afraid. what if i hurt her again? when the world starts crashing down how will i be sure that what i choose will be different this time? id on't know if i can be strong enough to change especially since i don't know how.