sub-visser fifty-one, technically. visser three's top lieutenant. well he was later visser one, but whatever. he was the one in charge of our invasion but she
they had a weapon. an anti-morphing ray to force us to demorph. so we let them capture me and use it on me. since my normal form was a hawk they wouldn't think it had worked, right?
she tortured me. used a machine that brought up my most painful memories and then my most pleasant ones and it felt like it went on forever and i was dying and i saw my father's memories and she broke me and i thought i admitted everything but i don't know if i actually said anything or just thought i did and
[He wants to stop typing, but he can't. He needs to tell someone, someone who might understand. It's not looking for pity but maybe, just maybe someone can understand.]
i still have problems with it. it was a while ago now but some nights i'm still trapped in that little box and all i can do is scream i can't even cry
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Date: 2016-02-11 02:33 am (UTC)they had a weapon. an anti-morphing ray to force us to demorph. so we let them capture me and use it on me. since my normal form was a hawk they wouldn't think it had worked, right?
she tortured me. used a machine that brought up my most painful memories and then my most pleasant ones and it felt like it went on forever and i was dying and i saw my father's memories and she broke me and i thought i admitted everything but i don't know if i actually said anything or just thought i did and
[He wants to stop typing, but he can't. He needs to tell someone, someone who might understand. It's not looking for pity but maybe, just maybe someone can understand.]
i still have problems with it. it was a while ago now but some nights i'm still trapped in that little box and all i can do is scream i can't even cry